Recently, I’ve really been working on doing things in Jesus name–looking for opportunities to serve someone and let them know why I do it. I’m finding that I’m failing more than succeeding. I’m seeing opportunities more, but I’m totally screwing up the second part. Here’s an example.
Last night, we went to grab some subs at Subway. The line was really long, and there was only one dude working that night. People weren’t just ordering one sub–they were ordering multiple subs (we had four to get ourselves). It took a good twenty minutes before it was our turn. This kid cranked out our subs (as he did the others before ours), didn’t look the least bit bummed, and was super polite. We were the last people in the store. He rang us up, gave us our change. I took a quick look at it, kept the coin, and gave him the cash (which came out to be something like a 30 percent tip). I told him something like, “You busted your backside while I was here.” He lit up and was super appreciative. We walked out the door (I think Laura was waiting on me). She said, “That was sweet. Did you tell him it was because of Jesus?”
Guilt rushed over me (it’s still nagging at me). I had a great chance to say, “Hey dude, you’re working hard. Thanks for busting your backside. Here’s a little something for you, because I want to tell you Jesus loves you.” I didn’t do it. I’ve preached about doing stuff in Jesus’ name. I’ve taught about doing stuff in Jesus’ name. I’ve done stuff in Jesus’ name. And this time I failed. The last several times I’ve failed.
I prayed, asking God for his forgiveness. Now I ask yours–especially those of you who’ve heard me talk about this stuff. Last night, I was a hypocrite. Now I must set myself to the task of repentance, and doing things in Jesus’ name. Otherwise, I’m just doing something good. Anyone can do something good. But only a follower of Jesus can do something good and give it an eternal aroma.
God, help me to pay more attention to the opportunities you give me, and help me to always remember why I do things–Jesus. May I never again forget to do things in Jesus’ name.